The Saddest Bitch in all of Spectrum
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hi
was feeling a wee bit shite today
so
i went & bought cake, chocolate & pizza
have monster, borgia and the original suicide squad ready to read
& i’m gonna curl up and take it easy
saturday night~~ -
i’ve been in a bit of a rough patch lately and thus have been bundled up in a blanket reading comics all day. i’m listing the comics i’ve read in the past 2-3 weeks here & some thoughts on them, mostly for my own documentation. if you’re curious as to what i’ve been reading, feel free to see~
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here are your gifts: a song, a poem, a game, a thought or two and a tweet.
okay take care!!
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my fringe (or “bangs” as yall muricans call em) has gotten too long and i might just continue to grow it out so that it covers my entire face
and keeps growing down
past my collarbones
and down to my navel
and still growing.
i’ll let it engulf my body and i’ll resemble a vaguely purplish version of cousin itt from the addam’s family and people will murmur
“i swear there’s a girl in there somewhere” -
please don’t tap on the glass, sir. it scares the animals
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hi helo here’s your song for today
i’m gathering enough thoughts for perhaps a series of essays(?) on sexy comics/sex in comics but i’m not sure.
games i’ve liked lately: mario empalado by pedro pavia. know that it’s pretty gory/violent in a crass sense (but that’s sort of The Point). if you’ve talked to me or heard me rattle on about the games industry before, you kinda know my take on it.
games i’ve not liked lately: twine games which contain sexual assault or bdsm but have no content warning. this are less Fun and more Horribly Triggering For Me Why The Heck Didn’t You Put a Tw On Thisother things: i’ve been really hyped about vending machines lately! i dunno. expect more vending machine related content.
okay hope you’re taking care of yourself bud
do your best ♥ -
i wrote a couple of paragraphs on Comics Things but it was so mumbly i’m just going to leave it in my drafts a little while
ok have fun and take care friends ♥
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this is from earlier when i was down in my folks house
hi
sleep tight -
![helloi look really grumpythoughts and things:
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this is actually the only song that matters to me right nowi’m so serious
i’ve had like a 24 hour comic bingei literally only left the house to go buy donuts and more comicswith breaks to listen to comics podcasts and interviews and play bit trip runner i suppose
i’m just surviving on abba and comicsi have my priorities yknow
also feeling a little bit quiet and terrifiedthe normal
i swear i opened this box with something intelligent to write about sex in comics going around my head, but i’ve entirely forgotten now, and i’m just tired
other thoughts include:organsartificiality apartment buildingsdeath
also i’ve been stewing on an idea for a whileof going back and speaking to the principle in my old boarding schoollike having a meeting with herand talk to her about why they don’t have any kind of counsellor in the schooland they have a chaplain (school priest) instead, to whom you’re meant to go with your problems
i wonder if they still have my photos on the hall walls hahai was a “star pupil” which is pretty gas in retrospectthe story of my journey through the education system is a long one, so i wont go into it, but yeah
this probably isn’t making much sense to read, but it’s making sense in my head and helping me keep my thoughts in order sosorry~
we’ve all been awake a very long time, and we’re very tired
okay next time i’ll have something more interesting to say!!have a good night/noon/morningtake care](http://25.media.tumblr.com/e392b1d2f5bbd45afaa7a14588968017/tumblr_mk6n2pa2N61r0gpxao1_1280.jpg)
hello
i look really grumpy
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![messy hair girlpoem things:
[[MORE]]there are certain lines of poetry that i think have forever lodged themselves in my mindthey are lines that i end up recalling all the time, lines that kinda follow me around.i have no idea how they ended up there, they’re not even my favourite lines or anything, but they’re stuck in me now.
one of them is from Brodsky’s Seaward:“Darling, you think it’s love, it’s just a midnight journey.”
and another is from Kevin Prufer’s In a Beautiful Country: “A good way to fall in love is to turn off the headlights and drive very fast down dark roads.”
it’s interesting that both these lines which managed to snag such a unique place in my mind are both about love and darkness and moving.i guess it says a lot about me.
love and darkness and moving](http://25.media.tumblr.com/e30dcbe478dedb5e80fef61f98f9f71b/tumblr_mjzjkd6diB1r0gpxao1_r1_1280.jpg)
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![i doodled on my nails during the other nightp good way of communicating diary & thoughts~~
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skip this bit if you dont want to hear me gush about comics junkthis interview with dave taylor on inkstuds is wonderfulhe talks in depth about his relationship with moebius, and goshhe describes a moment when moebius says that himself, taylor, jose ladronn & a few other illustrators are from another planet.and it’s just very very lovely, and moebius sounds like he must of been the most enchanting personand yeahi got a bit sad.
he also talks about working for dc in the late 90’s and how shit dc treated him, it’s really interesting and pretty repulsiveand yeah dave taylor is such a spacer, and that’s rad, because i love spacers. i love people who believe in ufo’s and shit, because they’re so damn human.also, on another note, connor williamsen popped up a new comic on study group! it’s neat!okay comic gushing over
on personal stuff, i’ve been trying to walk more because my energy levels have been complete shit of lateso today i walked to town and back and it began pouring rainand i havent walked in the rain in the while, but yeah, it’s such a lovely feelingthere’s always a chap on the door of the apartment block, all the men who work the door know me pretty wellso when i arrived back this evening, the guy was like “your hair is soaked” and i just kinda laughed and said “yeah”
other thought: i was looking at brutalist architectureand gosh how good are the words “brutalist” and “brutalism”? i dont know all that much about architecture, but i just want to steal those words and find a way to use thembrutalismit’s such a fucking good word right?okay
also!! the latest night vale podcast set is so so good
alrightneathope you’re well friendtake care!! ♥](http://24.media.tumblr.com/9785e9fa8f9604bcbf238890b604dcb4/tumblr_mjvjfb8rPO1r0gpxao1_1280.png)
i doodled on my nails during the other night
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![diary nonsense - comic book chatteri look like a frightened deer aha
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i am entirely in love with this and maybe you should be too
guess who’s mildly healthy and keeping well??me??weird
you know what i’ve been finding really funnyjosh simmons, the cartoonist, seems to get commissioned to draw porn stars a lotwhich like, i mean i got nothing against that, dudes gotta make paperbut i just try to imagine the type of people who buy these commissions.like did they read simmon’s comics, see all the frightening grotesque stuff that he does and think:yes. he should draw a blowjob for me.idk
next thing, i’ve been thinking a bit about humour and the humour i find funnyi keep on meaning to read that book by zuplenek (zulpeneck? zulenek??) on comedy i dont know much about comedy, in the philosophy sensethis bit is good i think: here!!!Zupančič!! her name is Alenka Zupančič. i googled it.this is fresh stream of conciousness junk right hereanywayi was trying to think about why i find misspellings and goofing up so funnylike uh this:
also, tangentially ive been totally in love with the way people have been using the vine app (like this originally was) for humouranywayi um cant remember what i was going to say
also lately i’ve been totally fascinated by gengoroh tagame, mostly thanks to the beautifully curated gaymanga tumblr (nsfw obviously)and yeah examining different artistic representations of bdsm culturelike representing a certain bleakness combined with celebrationi was reading the lyrics to smear the queen (yeah, i’ve been all into xiu xiu lately again) which are apparently written by zac, and yeah there’s a really interesting space there for exploration through art
and then, semi-related, i was reading more stuff in general about likebodies/people being pushed to their limiti dunno it’s always been something i’ve been fascinated withand it’s something that i think eastern art seems to openly engage much more, like even in terms of something like battle royale and other stuff that falls in that genre (gantz, national quiz, even liar game) (yeah sorry no im just talking about manga here haha)but yeah humanity being like pushed to their absolute limitand i was reading about old japanese game shows which operated when there were less rules in place about what you could and couldn’t do to a person in the name of entertainmentand yeah, this case is pretty infamous: wiki article (warning, that might be a wee bit uncomfortable to read idk)and likethats super super fucked upand like, utterly fascinating in a way that makes me want to analyse why i find it fascinating?yeah
okay oh gosh it’s like two, i should go sleeptake care!!sorry for rambling!!bye!!](http://25.media.tumblr.com/4bc4a8fc287432789e71b9d61895bec4/tumblr_mjmp0pTcE11r0gpxao1_1280.png)
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i look like a frightened deer aha -
i am tired & real
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hi
i’m feeling really good
john darnielle was on was on wtf podcast and oh gosh. if you are a survivor of abuse, hearing him talking about it is like.
it’s difficult.
but he’s so eloquent and intelligent, it’s a good feeling to hear someone say things you identify heavily with.
you can listen to it here. it’s hard to listen to, but really worth it.also i’ve been thinking about art and things that like
present an alternate reality
like night vale podcast does it wonderfully
and a whole bunch of comics, like deforge’s molecules, or that one he did about the deer.
i used to be really into alternate reality gaming as well
it’s really fascinating and yeah
i have a lot to say about that sort of stuff
i will
at some point.okay, do your best ♥
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listening to parenthetical girls and receiving beautiful comics in the post
something about everything coming up milhouse
